Archive for March, 2017


book

Fast Girl A Life Spent Running from Madness by Suzy Favor Hamilton is a book that caught my eye a while back, but I never bought it. What caught my eye about it is from a glance it mentions a professional runner who turned into an escort. I was curious as to how someone could go from that to escorting, but I wasn’t ready for the depth of the book which is what drew me in.

Suzy starts out by speaking about her family, how she grew up, and how she discovered her love for running. Then her book took an interesting turn as she spoke about her brother’s bipolar disorder diagnosis. She later on spoke on how she was one of the top runners in the country and even ran internationally eventually appearing in the Olympics.

After a suicide attempt she was diagnosed with depression and prescribed medicine. It wasn’t until after she started escorting that she was also diagnosed with bipolar disorder. I don’t want to spoil the book because I think people should read that story. I recommend it to anyone who is interested and/or struggling with mental health. I recommend it to anyone who looking for a good story to read. It really helped me to understand what goes on inside of the head of those who struggle with mental illness.

Sometimes I wish that I wasn’t an introvert. It’s isolating at times. I wish that I were that person who could walk into a crowded room and interact without having to feel it out 1st. I’m the one at work who sits towards the exit in a conference room just in case. It makes me feel safe. I wish that people would understand that, “Why are you quiet” is an offensive question. I don’t ask people why they won’t shut up. I have the ability to tune people out.
Sometimes being a free spirit is a burden too. It’s hard to follow the crowd when you don’t want to, and that’s one of the easiest ways to be left out. I like my freedom and individuality, but it makes jobs that require a lot of team work and recognition difficult. People don’t really understand being a free spirit because we are allegedly naturally social animals. People also think being a free spirit means promiscuity. I have sex maybe once a year. These two personality traits should come with a disclaimer. What that disclaimer would be, I’ll figure out someday.