Category: Every Thing

Envy is when you want something that someone else has. I struggle with this when it comes to certain things especially encouragement. I see people be their kids’ biggest cheerleader. They tell their child that they can do anything. I see how they call their children beautiful or handsome, and I wish that I got that as a child. It always seemed like I wasn’t good enough. I either needed to “stop looking so ugly” or when I got to high school it was, “You’d be cute if you wore makeup”. It didn’t bother me when I was a child. As an adult rejection makes those things dig deep. I know it’s easy to say that you should encourage yourself. That’s all well and good until it’s someone else’s assessment of you that determines whether or not you get that job or relationship. It’ll get better one day, but for now I’m going to allow myself to feel envious in order to deal with it.


When it comes to friendship or companionship, everyone has the right to seek out those who are like minded. Those who are like minded may not be in the same demographic which is perfectly fine. That is why I am confused when women who do not associate with that many women are looked down upon.

I personally don’t associate with that many women because I am not the same mentally as that many of them. I do have a few female friends, but we are all like minded. I don’t want to sit around and talk about men all the time. Yes, men are gorgeous, but I like activities. It’s easier to get a guy to go do certain things than a woman which is ok. I don’t mind getting sweaty and having conversations about humanities. The average woman won’t even speak up on social issues. Notice how your FB news feed have more men speaking up than women. I also grew up with three brothers so I am more comfortable around men. So the next time you see a woman who prefers hanging around guys remember there is nothing wrong with it, and mind your business.

Lessons About God

I grew up in a private Christian school from the ages of 4-17. I was made to go to a Baptist Church on Sunday. Throughout this time I had received mixed messages of God. The private Christian school that I went to taught us in a very Anglo Saxon way if you know what I’m saying. I’ve even had a bus driver say that there were no black people in the Bible. This school allowed praise and worship music, but I had a friend who got suspended for listening to a Kirk Franklin cd on the bus. We were told that it was wrong for certain instruments such as drums and guitars to be in church because rock musicians used them. We were told that it was wrong for those churches who have members running around and speaking in tongues.

As far as the Baptist church, I didn’t learn anything from it. All I remember is that the choir would sing songs that I couldn’t understand because the diction was horrible. Many times I would go to sleep because I didn’t pay attention. As I got older, an older boy showed interest in me, but I was not interested in him. He would wonder why I didn’t do anything in church. He would speak to my mom, but never to me. Meanwhile his mom who was an associate minister would watch me as I took care of my nieces and nephews.

When I went to college, I would read bits and pieces of my Bible but never studied it. I went to Bible study faithfully which really helped me to deal with my impossible roommates. In undergrad, I had a Sociology professor who was an ordained Baptist minister. Sometimes he would start preaching and would have to stop himself. What he didn’t realize is that we liked when he preached because he taught us how to respect and learn from other religions. I need to find Dr. Pullen for a therapy session. He is also a licensed therapists, and many of us would go to his office just to talk.

After I graduated from grad school, I started reading my Bible verse by verse. It has taken some time because I am also considering the history and astrology that was observed during the time that those passages were written. With all of this being said, this journey has taught me many lessons about God. The main one is that you cannot put God in a box.

God is God whether we call him Jesus, Buddha, Allah, Universe, energy, Source etc. God is the glue that holds this universe together. God is the feeling that tells you everything will be ok even though you are facing eviction. God is knowing whether or not someone you meet for the first time will be a snake or one of the best people you will ever meet. God is realizing that you don’t have to have the same religious beliefs with someone else for you two to get along. God is the lesson you learn through tough times. God is the amplifier of your good times so that you can bless someone else. God is the peace during the storm. God is the discretion you have without proof.

During these last few years, I have met people who follow religions other than Christianity and it helped me to understand Christianity even more. It was a Wiccan who taught me how to use the Bible to manifest my desires. It were Astrologists who helped me to understand the timing in the Bible. Those beasts in the Bible represent astrological signs that show certain times of year. Following those who practice Yoruba and Vodoun religions helped me to understand how King Solomon appreciated the woman’s body. I used to shy away from other religions because I was taught they were false and evil, but when you humble yourself to God you see that He’ll show you who He is in ways you would never imagine.


She walks on her tiptoes with her hands to the sky reaching for the blessings meant for her.

She opens her palm to embrace her surroundings while displaying the light that is within her.

Her dance in the sunlight shows grace and elegance while the wind blows her hair to her beat.

She feels God moving through her & guiding her breath from her head all the way to her feet.

Below is information from regarding the recent lawsuit against Navient.

Remember interest rates may go up so settling any student loan debt over $30k may be a viable option.


Student Loan Burdens

I have included a link from CNN discussing the major changes coming from Betsy Devos regarding student loan debt. Basically the interest rates may increase and certain loan forgiveness policies may be cancelled. I personally have at least $60k worth of student loans because I have a Bachelors and a Masters degree. With that being said, I can not afford for my interest rates to increase so I think I am going to look into settling my loans. If you are interested in doing the same then comment with your email address & I can give you more information on the process.

Chakra Tarot Spread

I did the chakra spread today, but with tarot cards. I’m not that good at tarot just yet, but I’ll type what I think it means. Here’s a link to the article that explains what every position means. If an “R” is next to a card then it means reversed.

Chakra Card Spread

  • Root-Empress, 10 of Wands R, Death R-I have what it takes to succeed, but through sacrifice can I only start over.
  • Sacral- 6 of cups R, 3 of wands R, Ace of cups R-I am realizing what I want if I open up and not let myself down.
  • Solar-9 of cups, Devil R, King of Pentacles-I am making the best out of my situation that’ll pay off later if I resist temptation.
  • Heart-8 of pentacles, Temperance, Emperor-Keeping my emotions in check will profit from the work I’ve done to grow.
  • Throat-5 of pentacles, 7 of cups, 2 of pentacles R-Clear communication will allow me to not have to juggle resources anymore.
  • 3rd eye- Strength, Lovers, 6 of wands R-I know who I am, but I need to learn how to love myself to gain true freedom.
  • Crown- Page of pentacles R, 8 of wands R, 4 of wands-I am letting the Diving know my needs, but I need to slow down to nurture myself.


Again I am not an expert so if you see these cards communicate a different message then please comment below. I posted this to help myself learn more.

Cauldrons and Cupcakes

“When you’re different, sometimes you don’t see the millions of people who accept you for what you are. All you notice is the person who doesn’t.”
~ Jodi Picoult

Hello, Lovelies :)

April has landed, and with it comes strong energy for believing in ourselves and reclaiming our direction.

This is your life. It’s yours to design and to live as you please, whether you realise it or not. This month you’re supported to untangle old thoughts of not-good-enough, and to identify what’s working, what’s broken and where to from here.

Cards for the Month:

I’ve chosen two cards for April for you: one from the Osho Zen Tarot Deck, and one from Colette Baron-Reid’s Wisdom of the Oracle. Please note I don’t use these cards in the conventional way, but rather as a stimulus for channelled information.

Here is what I have received from each card:

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I was googling chakra spreads to use with my tarot and oracle cards, but I decided to come up with my own. Each position represents the 7 chakras: Root, Sacral, Solar Plexus, Heart, Throat, Third eye, and Crown, but it includes 21 cards in total. Cards 1-7 represent the current state of your chakra. Cards 8-14 represents what type of work that chakra needs. Cards 15-21 represents what you are good at or your tendency. Attached are pictures I did to demonstrate. I used playing cards because I’m still learning tarot cards, and playing cards make more sense to me. I simplified the meaning of each card from Cards of life. Excuse the photo quality, I need a new phone.


These are my 1-7 cards; root-crown chakra.


These are my 8-14 cards.


These are my 15-21 cards.

Here’s a breakdown or simplified explanation

  1. Root Chakra: J of hearts (selfless love), 10 of spades (accomplishment in work), and 7 of hearts (spiritual love). I am grounded in selfless need, need to work on feeling accomplished in my work, and I am good at spiritual love.
  2. Sacral Chakra: 6 of hearts (responsible love), 8 of clubs (ambition and mental power), 4 of clubs (structural mind). I take pleasure in responsible love (read sex). I need to work on my ambitions. My identity is partly defined by having a structural mind.
  3. Solar Plexus: 2 of spades (union in work), 8 of diamonds (financial power), 10 of diamonds (financial accomplishment). I currently have the ability to take control of my work life. I need to get my finances straight. I also know how to obtain financial accomplishment.
  4. Heart Chakra: 5 of hearts (restless love), 5 of spades (adventurer), 9 of hearts (universal love). I am restless due to past hurtful experiences. I need to open myself to more adventures. I’m good at seeing the good in a lot of things.
  5. Throat Chakra: 8 of spades (work in power), 4 of diamonds (financial foundation), 6 of spades (responsible lifestyle). I understand the power of my words, need to use my words to attract or manifest money, and I am responsible with my words.
  6. 3rd Eye: 2 of hearts (union in love), 9 of diamonds (universal values), 7 of diamonds (spiritual values). I feel connected to my 3rd eye. I need to work on expanding it, and I am good at identifying my spiritual values.
  7. Crown Chakra: 2 of diamonds (union in values), 8 of hearts (social power), Ace of clubs (ambition or mystery). My consciousness if strong. I need to work on my consciousness when it comes to others, and I’m good at being mysterious.


In conclusion, I read those cards that way because I know me. If I were reading them for someone else then it’d be more detailed. I’ve noticed that it is mostly diamonds which translates to pentacles in tarot and hearts with translates to cups. In my waking life I do need to work on my material manifestations and figuring out what I want emotionally. Have fun with this spread. It can be used for many types of cards.

Enchanted Map Oracle cards by Colette Baron-Reid are based on a traveler’s journey. They feature cards such as a Wishing Well, Dry Dessert, Coming Together, and a Compass. I haven’t really learned them that well, but it features a pretty thick book that helps you with interpreting them. Below is a picture of them. Have you used them? What do you think?

Overall I like the thickness of the cards. As with most cards, they are a little too big for female hands, but the graphics are nice. To see this deck click on the link below. For some reason I can’t insert pics of the cards.